This has not been a good day. I heard that the baby (Jordyn)that was 5 months old and finally home passed away from SIDs. She weighed only 15 oz. to start with. She was in the hospital for four months. She had been home for a month. She had gained weight and everything looked great.
I had followed this baby's journey from day 1. Her grandma was my daughters best friend in school. I don't know why things happen like this but I guess there is a reason. It brought back memories from when my daughter Paula died. Her birthday is on July 5th. She died two days later. An eighth month baby back in the day was hard to survive then. I cried a good bit of the day for both these babies that never got to live.
I thought in todays world it would all be okay. But not so.
On a different side I don't like to admit defeat but I don't think I can handle the job I have. I don't like to admit I am older and cant do everything I used to do but I cant. I had been throwing this free paper in River Oaks for almost a year. That was only 3,000. I started this one this week that had 11,500. I worked for three days on them. Oh, no. I cannot do all of that alone.
A lot of people tried to tell me that but I think I am tough and can do anything. It was 10 hours of work yesterday and last night I couldn't even go to sleep. Today I tried taking a nap and I couldn't take a nap. I still don't feel sleepy. I hope I can sleep tonight. I have never been so tired I cant sleep.
We will see what happens I guess.
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