I Don't Like Dentists.....

Today I had a dental appointment. I hate dentists in the first place but they can make you have a pretty smile I guess and pearly white teeth. What would we do without them? I am glad this is my next to last appointment. The next one is to get those pearly white teeth.

I got dentures when I was 43. I lived in Sweetwater then and went to Dr. Brothers. He is gone now. I have had these teeth for 29 years so they must have been good ones. All they done back then was put this stuff in your mouth to make an impression. Few weeks later you have your teeth.

Well I found out times have changed. I went to the dentist here a number of times and I would always chicken out. Finally I found this one close to where I live and I went. I felt comfortable with him. They put this stuff like plaster of paris in your mouth with a needle like thing. Then they put this tray in there that is pretty big. He said I might have a gag reflex but I didn't. Leave that in there for 3 minutes he said but it seemed like 10. He had to use both hands to pry the top one out. It split my lips at the corner.

The next week I went back I didn't know what I was in for. I thought it would be easy after the impressions. Not so. They have these wax impressions of the plate part. They were too thick. He kept having to trim it. I bet I put those in my mouth twenty times. He finally got them like he wanted them. He had me bite down on them to see if they lined up right. Split lip again.

Today I went again and had to try on wax impressions with teeth in them. Thank goodness they turned out good. No grinding the teeth down. They are going to be an adjustment after wearing these that have wore down so  bad. It felt like my teeth were really tall. I am going to look so much better though and  eat so much better.

I thought I was getting them next week but he said he is out of town next week. So it will be the next week. I am so proud of myself for going and getting all of that done. It took a lot of courage on my part. You know there is a reason for all of that don't you?

This experience should make anyone that needs to get this done not want too. Ha. But again if I can do it anyone can.

Good Busy Weekend.......

I like it when I have a busy weekend. I get bored when I have nothing to do on the weekend. This weekend my daughter had a party for two of her boys and herself since all the birthdays were in June. Hers is today. Connors is the 30th and Colton's the 9th. Usually I give her party so that saved some money. I did help buy a few things to eat and got her a cake.

It was a great party. Kids all played in water out in the back. Had hot dogs and burgers. Afterwards after the kids left grownups had fun playing guitar and singing karaoke and adult drinks.

I left and went to hear a friend play bass and sing a little. I love music and he is really good. He performs at different places.

This morning it was church. I really love my small church. This afternoon Jana's Mom in law invited us all over to eat BBQ. It was great. We sat around and gossiped a little while. Then we had Coconut Crème pie and ice cream.

I came home and cleaned up in my yard some. I never work in the yard enough. Charles mowed the yard. Then tonight I watched a mystery movie. Those movies are from the books that Joanne Fluke writes. They are all about sweet desserts. Very good movie.

Now it is time for bed. Dentist again tomorrow but soon I will have a beautiful smile. You just wait and see.

Be Careful What You Ask For......

Last night in my prayers I ask if I could maybe get a job that paid more. My son has been staying here and helps out some. He is moving in a week or so . I need to make  a little more money than I do. And I ask if somehow I could get my dental needs taken care of. Dentists are so expensive.

Well today when I went to get the papers I do Vee told me the person who does White Settlement was quitting. They do 11,000 papers. If I can just find someone to help me with rolling them. That will be so much more money. It will be hard but well worth it.

Then my son Allen who plays professional poker said he was on his way to Vegas to play. He said he would win enough to pay my dental bill. He said if he didn't win he would still pay it. He said his punishment for sucking at playing poker. ha He is a good player.

I was so happy with those two things happening. Although everything wasn't good. Guys came to put on my roof today and  they didn't get through.They will be back tomorrow. We had a leak in the ceiling in the living room. We thought it was leaking from the roof. But it was still leaking yesterday. Not raining. It is from the AC pipes up in the attic I am sure. If my son can't fix that I will have to get a AC man out. They are not cheap.

But still all in all I had a good day. I wish my other prayer of getting a good man would come true. I am not even sure I need one of them. I seem to not have as much stress when I am alone. It does get lonely though. There are good things and bad things about everything I guess. If God sees fit to find me a good man it will happen. If not I guess I will stay single. Either way I can be happy. I am feeling real good about my life right now. There are so many people a lot less fortunate than me. I thank God every day for my kids. They are such blessings!

I Reached 105 Today!

It has taken me about 5 years to get back to 105. I got an anxiety problem when I was still married to Jeff. I don't know if he was the cause of it or not. I just know I weighed 125 and I went down to 93. I started seeing a therapist and I tried everything he told me to do. Write in my journal every day. Look at the tree in my back yard and think peaceful thoughts . Be positive.  I tried everything but nothing helped much.

I had a swallowing problem and it wasn't anything wrong with my throat. If I was happy I could swallow better. If I was stressed I couldn't hardly eat at all. I could snack better than I could eat meals. I learned to take a drink of water with every bite I took. If the phone rang I couldn't talk while I was seating. I was a basket case. I know I have came a long ways when I see how much I have improved.

One year at Christmas I had cooked all morning and sat down to eat with the family. I took about five bites and all of a sudden I just could not swallow. I sat there with tears rolling down my face. Jeff ask me what was wrong. No one understood what I was going thru. It was so hard to explain. The therapist said I had post traumatic stress like soldiers get from the tragedy I had when my daughter died.

After Jeff left I very gradually got better. Every meal was such a problem to get thru. I lived on crackers and candy for awhile. I dreaded every meal. Most people take for granted to be able to eat. The more I had the problem the more I worried about every bite I took. Of course it didn't get any better.

Just this year it has all gotten better. I still worry sometimes but most of the time I don't even think about it. Up until I was 50 years old I weighed 95 lbs. My sister never weighed over 89 lbs. Her two boys were very small like her. Some of my grandchildren are small too so it is all inherited I guess.

I try eating anything fattening I can and it has helped. I gained a few ounces a week . Finally today I stepped on the scale and it showed I weighed 105 I was overjoyed. That means a lot to me. I over come a lot of problems and I done it alone. And I got off of anxiety medicine the doctor told me I would never be able to get off of after 5 years. I feel like I have accomplished so much. And I have!

Time Sure Does Fly....

It was a year ago today my son Charles and I went to his Dad's funeral. He lived in Brownwood, Texas. It seems like this past year has flew by. I had to drive in the rain today for six hours but that beat where I had to go to last year at this time.

My brother Wayne was there. I don't see him often. He lives in San Angelo, Texas. A friend of mine and Paul's was there too. I hadn't  seen him in years. His wife had died the year before. I wish I could have seen Jean before she died.

I met Paul when I was in the second grade. They lived right down the street from us. There were six boys in that family. My Dad moved a lot but we were in Brownwood at that time. I guess later we had moved and came back because I met him again and went to the movies with him in the  sixth grade. Moved away again and then met him again when I was 17. My Dad moved from Sweetwater to Brownwood every year. I guess he couldn't figure out which place he liked best.

I was around Paul for awhile and then one day my Dad decided to move again to Hamlin. Off we went. Paul went to Washington. We wrote letters every week. I got a job carhopping at the only fast food place in Hamlin. Paul wrote me he was coming back to Brownwood. I went back there and stayed with my brother.

We got back together and got married. I was 18, he was 19. Mistake of my life. He was one wild guy. Cheated on me so many times I could not count them. We stayed together for 7 years but one day I left with three small kids and one on the way. (That I didn't know about) I guess my life wasn't ruined entirely with him. I wouldn't have my four kids if I had not been with him.

He changed with his 5th wife and turning 40 I guess. I think some people can change if they love that person enough. Anyway he went on to be  a successful man with several businesses of his own. Tried to do better with his kids.

I forgave him long ago for all the torment he put me through. We live and learn I guess. He was my first love and you can never forget your first love. RIP Paul.