I like living alone just fine. Until after dark. I don't know why it bothers me so much. I guess because I am a sunshiny person. The first thing I do when I wake up is open all the blinds. Let the sun come in. We made a family room/movie room out of the garage. I have three sets of French doors and two windows. When I get up I open all those blinds and go out and get my paper. I have a glass of orange juice and read the paper. I am busy all day and pretty well content.
And then night time comes. When I close all the blinds I feel like I am closed in. I turn on a lot of lights. When I go to bed I leave the hall light and the bathroom light on. I cannot stand total darkness. I don't know if that is why I keep waking up during the night. My street is kind of a busy street.
I have a security system and that makes me feel safer. But still not safe enough I guess. Living on a busy street doesn't help matters. I got a real nice neighbor that looks out for me . She says she is just a holler away. That makes me feel safer.
Now why do I read all the mysteries that I read? Because I love them dearly and couldn't quit if my life depended on it. They don't seem as scary as watching them in a movie. Bates Motel scares me a little. That family is not normal.
Maybe I need a roommate. Unless the roommate is scary. You hear about that too. I guess I just been watching too many scary movies and reading too many scary books. But I am not going to quit.....
Elaine, let go of it. You've got what you need--security, helpful neighbor, lights on (I do that too, lest I trip over a carelessly discarded shoe or something). To me a busy street, like mine, is a safety factor. What you need now is a dog. Police say that's the best security ever.
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