People Magazine-Robin Williams

I read People magazine every week. They are not like Enquirer where everything they say is false. You can usually depend on what they say to be true. I got one today and Robin Williams was on the cover. I haven't read it yet but looking forward to it when I go to bed. That is one of my luxuries I do every week. Another is I always do a few lotto's because I really believe if you don't play you are not going to win. Those two things may cost a little bit but I don't drink or smoke and I do learn things and take a chance on winning some money. Don't hurt a soul but maybe my checking account a little. It's only money and you can't take it with you.


It has really upset me about Robin Williams. He would have been the last person I would have thought might kill themselves one day. He made everybody laugh. But I guess inside he was not laughing. When Jana was small we watched Mrs. Doubtfire I don't know how many times. I loved that show.


I would have never thought of him as being the kind of person that would leave his family and not think about what his death would do to them. Or maybe he was in so much pain mentally and physically he just couldn't handle life anymore. No one will ever know the answer to that because he is not here and he was the only one who knows the answer.


My nephew killed himself at 40 years old. I always wondered why he did that. And again of course nobody knows why . He was living in Iowa and had just got married. He called me about two weeks before it happened and told me he was happily married and doing fine. I wished him well. That was the last I ever heard from him.


He left two boys without a daddy and a wife. Did he think about what this was going to do to them or was he in such pain he just wanted to end it all? No one knows.


I have always said if people that commit suicide would just stop and think about it for a  few days maybe they would change there minds. Things look a lot different after awhile and things have a way of working themselves out. I don't know if it is a brave thing to kill oneself or a coward's way out. I have heard both ways. I just know I would never have the courage to do that because I like me.